My God this has been a trying week for me! I've been hit with a number of things from a bunch of different directions. Have you ever felt tired in your soul, like your inner strength has just about been completely depleted? That's what this week has been like for me. Anger, sadness, disappointment, helplessness, I've experienced all of that in the span of just a few days that has felt so much longer. I'm so glad it's Friday!
I've been fighting hard to keep my head above water and now I am ready to sink, sink into God, sink into myself, get reconnected with the sense of joy, gratitude and wonder that has sustained me time and time again. I have drifted away from myself. I've allowed external circumstances to cut me off from my inner peace, essentially to cut me off from my own being. I want it back and I'm going to spend time this weekend shutting everything else out and being alone with God and myself.
It is in that quiet place that I spring back to life. It is in that quiet place that I am rejuvenated and strengthened and born again. It is in this sacred silence and solitude that I experience more fully the fellowship of God and come to realize that I am surrounded by Presence and discover I have more strength to continue the journey than I thought I had and an increasing sense of joy to go along with it as well. It is in descending again into the darkness and silence of the womb of God do we reemerge into a world of light ready to begin our journey afresh. To this quiet place I will go for I have been away too long.
Following the Way,